8 October 2015
It's been a long time I did not write;
about what's going on with my life.
In conclusion, I can say it's getting more better than past days. Simple, life is balance. Being sad for something is normal. But, it is not an excuse for you to not to live your life to the fullest. Yes that is my aim. I just want to enjoy my precious life :')
Alhamdulillah, my last semester's gpa is not bad. It is so-so. Basically, it was equal to my hardworks. I'm thankful for what Allah has gave. It's beyond than what was I expected. Of course, I have my own hope for this semester.
Alhamdulillah. Eventhough it is still a secret, but it's fun telling to Allah what I felt. When I see him, it's like a rainbow pop up in my head. When having a conversation with him, it's like having an explosion in my heart. Yezza, it is one-sided love. Sad to state that but to get a chance to feel love for someone is already a happiness. And it's normal tho, liking someone kan? crush crush crush ((He's a funny guy)) Easily attracted to this kind of man <-- Me.
So that's all. Seems like I am more excited in sharing about my love story. Cewwah.
Hati berbunga bunga ni kena siram hari hari, kalau tak layu hati nanti.
27 June 2015
And hi again. Lama tak berjumpa.
So what's up ? There's no such thing like brand new day or else that describes the best moment happened to me lately. Just want to inform y'all that now I am in the phase of purge myself from any negative attitudes since it's Ramadhan now. And now, I just busy preparing myself for final examination that actually has started. And two papers down, four more to go. I don't know why, seems like this semester has flew away so fast.
And this keyboard keeps making noise and it might give such a noise pollution to them that are studying rn. Hehe. Sorry guys, me is too missing my space to talk. Overall, I hope I can perform my best for this semester since it is the first semester holding the status as degree student, keke. So the expection is a lil bit higher. So bye guys. Pray the best for me and may the odds be ever in my favor.
27 May 2015
Kadang kadang aku rasa kami cam agak cool gak ah.
No need to cover ayu and cun macam contoh gelak kat kepci kuat gila,
even for the smallest thing yang orang akan rasa that was no funny man.
Well, kalau cam ajak pergi mana mana. There's no need to think, just go with the flow.
Contohnya Kuantan jom when actually the real plan is you just wanna go to Mesra Mall je.
We like to wear big clothes that make us look like fatty kid who likes to eat mcd everyday.
And we like sport very much, boleh main badminton sampai pat pagi.
And tetiba tidur for the whole day.
Rajin beperangai sepah, tetiba tersadung, tetiba sos tumpah kat tudung, that was basically us.
Karaoke is one of our hobby, jerit kuat kuat for Paramore song. Itu biasa.
Our words differ from others. Our ways pun lain. Kami bukan macam gadis gadis ayu comel lote, we're different. Selekeh, lenjan & sepah.
Well I miss the old days. I really miss us bertiga.
I choose delicious food and great music instead of you.
I have no doubt that I will actually survive without any shitty feeling.
because the existence of that bullshit feeling,
just adding the pressure that I already had.
There's a lot of indescribable mixed feeling haunted myself, lately. Forgive me.
Somehow, it gives me inspiration to write.
At least to this blog.
22 May 2015
21 May 2015
I cant deny that this love keeps growing up bigger and bigger everyday.
To be honest, I dont really want to get involved on those thingy.
I am afraid he might not be the one and at the end my time would be wasted.
And also this isnt the right time.
And I dont want to be his plan B.
16 May 2015
You gave me a blank of paper and who knows I could feel such an unbelievable happiness
I try hard to create another art and I am pleasure to beautify that blank paper
Yep. It was a blank paper
It just another fucking priceless blank paper
It was a blank feel
It was nothing
Sorry for my bad words.
4 May 2015
29 April 2015
Gua boleh baring satu hari atas katil hadap komputer riba,
ada hari gua boleh terkinja kinja menari zumba,
ada hari tetiba mood gua hilang tak tau pergi mana,
ada hari gua merempit sebab nak hirup udara segar saujana.
Tulah pepelik je perangai, dah namanya diciptakan seorang insan bernama perempuan.
Normal, minat kita semua tak sama.
Cuma kalau kita boleh share, bukankah itu bahagia.
I can listen to The 1975, Paramore, Mayday Parade, All Time Low, Imagine Dragons, Arctic Monkeys, The Neighbourhood and even Pierce The Veil. Ni masanya tetiba nak rasa diri ni cool ala ala Matthew Healy dan Hayley Williams.
At the same time, I can fangirling over kpop boy bands such as Bangtan Sonyeondan, Exo and Big Bang. Okay, itu je yang saya betul betul minat. Yelah saya kan excited tengok mamat sem sem, siapa tak tertarik dengan penampilan mereka. So cool and swag kot. Hiks
Kadangkala boleh excited sensorang dengar W.A.R.I.S
Aku ni dah macam Dr.Jekyll and Mr. Hyde, cis!
23 April 2015
Dan pengalaman cuti selama seminggu yang nak aku ceritakan,
mungkin patut aku sampaikan dalam bentuk tulisan.
Tidak banyak aktiviti yang aku buat melainkan tidur dan makan. Maka konklusinya mungkin berat bertambah sakan. Bukannya taknak having fun bak kata muda mudi sekarang, cumanya bila tengok dompet dipenuhi resit resit jahanam tu, harapan kau tinggal harapan. Sembang kencang nak pergi ke sana ke sini, tengok wayanglah, karaoke jambanlah dan macam macam mmm sekejap lagi satu, dan mungkin termasuk cadangan nak pergi jogging setiap pagi *batuk kecil*
Kita cuma merancang
Dan gua bangga gua kurang mensosialkan diri sepanjang cuti,
There's countless of days have been the unproductive days.
22 April 2015
So that's the truth, my blog was made when I am seventeen.
Actually, there's exist another blog of mine.
But that was too kiddo so I decided to make this blog.
Basically all of my deep-inside-my-heart was stored in here.
Blog, you have done so much good deeds to me.
Thank you for always listening since 2011.
21 April 2015
So what did I do?
Baca balik all the entry that I have posted.
banyaknya butthurt & heartbroken.
banyaknya entry pasal cinta tak berbalas.
banyaknya entry sedih sedih
kok guwa baru perasan ya?
Taktahu kenapa hati ni makin kuat ya Allah.
Terima kasih, aku bersyukur ya Allah.
Moga moga dah dua ribu lima belas ni takde dah entry cem gitu.
Moga moga dah tak jatuh cinta, puih.
Gua target dekan every sem je ni, kalau tak dekan, gua buat entry butthurt.
Tapi target gua dekan lah, GUA TARGET DEKAN.
Tapi tulah bila diskusi pasal target ni kan, target tu takkan semestinya kenyataan.
Tapi kita cuba, tak cuba tak tahu. Hiks *ala ala manja gitu*
Every single person in this world, there's nobody left to be an exception
must have their own artistic skills, forget the level of it.
Terer ke tak terer ke tak kira, faham?
Even kau kata kau tak reti lukis, hey orang lidi pun arts apa.
Even kau kata kau suara ke laut pun, at least still ikut rentak okay.
Arts tu ada dalam diri setiap orang.
Setiap orang tu ada seni, kalau tidak dari apa yang kita nampak, mungkin dari apa yang kita tak nampak. Kan? Deep kan. Haha.
Duduk duduk di rumah,
Tak ada makna nikmat secawan latte!
Menyampah betul lagu ni.
Dan harini apa patut aku tulis. Entah.
Idea nak menulis ni kadang kadang pelik,
Muncul bila kita tengah baring, prepare nak tidur.
Muncul bila line internet memang haram takde.
Muncul bila kita tengah jalan jalan nak balik bilik lepas kelas,
Sampai sampai bilik terus lupa nak buka laptop.
Inikah dinamakan tiada jodoh?
7 April 2015
It isn't simple as you think
Because we're getting bigger and everything becomes complicated
And of course I would say it is very impossible that I will liking someone by now,
because experiences has taught me like a lot
such as for your heart to be healed after being broken takes time
And masa tu bukan biasa biasa lama dia
28 March 2015
Kau ingat senang nak move on?
Semua benda kat dunia ambik masa,
Beza dia lambat dan sekejap je
Tak jumpa kau hari hari selama berbulan bulan dalam masa setahun
pun belum tentu jaminkan aku boleh lupa
27 March 2015
For the past few years, I can conclude my life was mostly horrible especially when it is related to feelings.
Until at one point, I am tired to try and too sick of my own creation of drama.
Can I just sit back and relax and just wait?
You know how long I take times to forget about what happened? It isn't easy
Please act like nothing happened because if you keep on remembering me about the past, you're just making me sick of you.
I just want everything back to normal,
where the feelings are totally natural.